03-Feb-10 to 08-Feb-10
03 Feb- Morning GT & Pjhs, SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM 20mins, BZMZ X7
04-Feb- Morning GT & Pjhs, Class….
05-Feb- Morning GT & pjhs, skipped…
06-Feb- SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM 30mins, BZMZ X7
07-Feb- Morning GT & pjhs, class…
08-Feb- GYFM awhile only…
27-Jan-10 to 02-Feb-10
27-Jan SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM , BZMZ X7, DG
28-Jan class
29-Jan – 31-Jan skipped …
01-Feb GYFM only
02-Feb SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM 4mins 15mins, BZMZ X7, sit down DG
26-Jan-10
SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM 23mins, BZMZ X7, DG
got feel dan tian there jump a few times… maybe I hungry..haha…
25-Jan-10
SOP, DBZ X7, GYFM 8mins, 21mins, BZMZ X7, DG
feel warm when start SOP… was chanting xin jing in a slow and steady mode, a feel of peace and “blur” state….as if not I chant kind of feel…
DBZ - I was chanting.. and it seems to be brighter and brighter..then I felt something(might be fear, might not be.. I not sure)… I just open my eyes.. start over again…
GYFM – 8 mins..a bit of scare feel… thinking …
GYFM – 21mins… this time feels better … i dun even knw it was already 21 mins.. seems like quite fast…
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can’t control..just flare up moment ago…
23-Jan-10
Just finished homework…today I do full SOP, DBZ X21, GYFM 25mins, BZMZ X21…
one question abt guan yin zhan… is the whole guan yin zhan repeat 3 times or the last sentence repeat 3 times?
Obstacles
I had not been doing my homework diligently… I dunno wat happened to me… initially I felt fear… after that I tot this fear had gone… but no…
I often told myself I must do Full SOP when I reach home…but in the end… its short cut one… just gyfm nia or maybe chanting and gyfm… I dun dare to walk into the altar room…
I tried jing zuo just now… hoping to calm myself down and try to find out wats wrong….
I talk to myself…
I was thinking.. how come buddha had the courage to sit alone under the bohid tree and face the mo test….
he very zai…. and had no reaction to any situations he face… I think that’s called “定” bah… I no ding, easily distracted by the 环境/sounds or watever. Is it because I no ding, so I start to feel fear/ allow fear to come to me? then slowly it leads me to laziness?
only myself can help myself now… have to try to overcome this…
Dragon Night cum Thai Woman
oh… yesterday was an unforgetable night… it was so fun…
My DG is getting more and more like a thai lady… kick, dance, kick , dance… but I can’t balance well… gotta practice my balancing sia.. in case one day I kick and fall.. I think MR gonna laff till peng sia…and he already pre-warn me once liao…
Dragon night ~ so interesting…
was practicing DG and trying to kick well… MR always come and with the same question…”How’s ur kicking liao?” I dunno how to kick it right so I ask him demo… in the end he ask me ownself do show him… and he say nice wor… hahahah… so happy…. finally he say something nice wor…wahahahaha…
when I was asked to syn with Jasmine, my hands were rotating and rotating… only can feel the warm at the beginning when we try to syn… then MR say we got no feel… and ask us to rest… after a while we grouped with sher and auntie becky… soon we were asked to join the group of (coloured dragons girls)…
and soon… Ah Zar starts her ling communication… so cute… she walk here and there..MR following talking to her and she translating plus neg… then many of us were given “pills” to swallow… actually I can’t feel the pill lah… I just suck and swallow lo… then after a while, I like start to dance… thai dance sia… felt happy somemore…. guess my ling is happy !
then we kneel down and thanked the 1000 dragons… and Ah Zar do da li pai too!
WE are so fortunate!
01-Jan-10 to 05-Jan-10
Done SOP daily, had add guan yin zhan(before heart sutra) and BZMZ(after GYFM) too… felt warm and sweat … during SOP… can feel crown and 3rd eye chakra… during GYFM, felt 3rd eye chakra area like contracting and pulse beat feel… DG, as per usual except that a bit like dancing… hahaha..
during the sunday healing, kelvin say can feel my throat chakra… but i bo feel …
Helpless
I always saw dying animals around my workplace… today I saw another dying pigeon, so restlessly lying on the ground… from far, I tot it was dead, i even think of not passing / walking near it cos I can’t help him anyway… but I still decides to passby as I was quite kpo.. I saw a small white cap there, someone had deliberately left a cap of water for the poor bird.. I felt glad, there are kind people ard and the animal isn’t dead … but it is suffering… it definitely is…. I felt so helpless.. I can’t do anything to it… not even chanting…. haiz… in the end I just walk past it silently…..
