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done SOP few hrs ago… I realised nowadays… when I do SOP.. I start to feel warm… when I start SOP I also start to sweat a lot… then today I kept feeling the lips vibrating like a pulse feel…its slightly above my upper lips… when I try to feel it by relaxing.. it vibrates more sometimes…  is it qi bo tong there?

few days ago, ears got pressure…then I realised is, ears like a bit block… when u took lift to high storey that kind of block… maybe I sick bah…so kanna block ears also…

just finished SOP…did GYFM twice as the 1st time was rather short due to cough… then did another time abt 20 mins… hmm… near to the ending part… have a very serene feel…felt happy to do GYFM… then I think I talk to myself… dun be lazy any more … must have discipline… 

DG… today DG very unglam leh… like dancing cum the usual strokes plus jumping… i think even raise leg to kick once or twice… si bei funny leh… and suddenly action quite forceful then very fast tired… I stopped…

I couldn’t help to think.. it looks like doing thai boxing leh… hehehhehehe…. sorry … just imagine nia… :p

just now after i bath Nicki… i experienced breathing difficulties…I cant breath deep.. like something stuck in my throat to chest area… scare the daylights out of me… cos only me and ah ma at home…I am afraid if I faint how? 

I tried to drink a lot of water .. no use.. eat cough mint sweets..no use.. I go open all the windows wide wide… then i  dunno wat to do liao.. keep trying to cough out the phlegm hoping that I can breath deeply… sweating and feeling scared… I tried to do PJHS ..chant also difficult..chant once, deep breath once… then I try to self heal… sit in front of window.. imagine white light shine into my body from my crown chakra… cough a couple of times to spit out the phlegm.. then I continue a few more times till I felt breathing better…

thru out the process.. I felt constant pressure on my crown chakra..like a finger pressing.. I think yi dao qi dao.. I hoping to be heal and can breath easier… I am not sure if there is higher being around.. but I ended with Thanking zhong fo, pusa, shenxian, long zu, ge tian wang… 

I am not sure like tat tio bo.. but I try lah… and now I breath better le…

had been doing 静坐 daily… there was one time… when I sit there..not thinking until suddenly… I felt warm/cool…

I was then thinking… is that warm or cold… I can’t differentiate.. it lasted a while..then I dunno is it I si ba(hokkien ~ die meat) or wat…

then I feel like whole body numb… like energy… was wondering is it the layer of energy around the body?

Friday~ 16-Oct-09

我 皈依了！星云法师　主持　this gui yi ceremony!

我的法号is 　张喜良。

My brother is 张喜稳。

We reached around 5pm and before the guiyi ceremory starts… there was a nun demonstrating how we wear and fold haiqing followed by another nun explaining the ways to walk and kneel when wearing haiqing..

not long, some of the guys were ask to go to the main hall to join those taking 5 precepts .. wer, me, Cheryl and vicki were asked to go too … was unable to take lift due to too many people taking lift, so we walk up to the hall… walk there wasn’t easy… I almost trip while climbing up the stairs..and this wer wer is giggling lo…so paiseh…

when we were in the main hall… I can’t follow the lu xiang zhan well too… cos they were singing and dragging sooo long till i forget the next word… at the beginning, I kneel and pray quite clumsily, keep stepping on my haiqing..sit too long and feel leg numbs… have to stretch out my legs… at the ending part, after we were being 灌顶, we went back to our seat and continue chanting na mo guan shi yin pusa… I cried … so much tears… and a auntie in front was taking photos lo… this wer wer again trying to control her giggling..I clear my tears and continue chanting… still tearing… so much tears…then when everybody was leaving… we got remedial lessons on how to pray and kneel when wearing haiqing…

but overall, I was touched… it’s a memorable day!

I would like to take this opportunity to Thank all of you, esp those who had gone thru gui yi and still make an effort to come and see this gui yi ceremony to go thru with us, we are like a very united family… I am happy!

well, I hv done my homework daily except that sometimes I never hit the minimum ~ 45 mins

during this period, there isn’t much different and becos I was also lazy …so I never blog lah…

The feels I had during “quiet sit”:

~ feels energy in my body moving…

~ body jerk forward like doze off

~ sometimes I can’t sit still, feel like opening my eyes just for the seek of opening… then I close my eyes and continue again…

~ feels ants crawling… shoulder,back, arms, legs, body and face(not all in one session)… sometimes can lun until forget the itchy but sometimes will still open my eyes…

~ also will have tots coming in… like daydreaming…

yesterday we had a healing session with 4 “new patients”,

i start with a uncle nearest to the door… din feel much, but in my heart I keep calling out guan yin pusa, saying I want to heal them can give me more feel to heal them…

after that I move to da jie’s sis… erm… I feel that I was forcing something out, I saw da jie crying, I didn’t care, I dun want to be distracted…but after a while I felt sadness, I cried too… cannot control, tears just drop… and it gets more ji tong… then I bo care…just keep doing wat I should till I heard her cries getting louder and louder, then I felt like vomiting too… got a kind of er xin feeling… then I can’t remember much cos sometimes I bo open my eyes…

then move to another “auntie”… was asked to chant da bei zhou in heart, just keep hitting her back… think there’s blockage on her whole back area… stiff … move to her front… her 4 limbs might have blockages too…can see she quite scare and gan chiong…

there was one moment that I think I can’t feel much, just try to quiet down and yun ling again to feel the feel and I continue to call out guan yin pusa in heart telling her that I want to heal them…give me stronger feel…

at the ending part of the healing, I was feeling very tired liao… my body was very warm after the healing and my face was red also …

Questions:

1) Do we need to cut the heart connection off for “this type” of healing?

2) Do we need to claw the negative energy from our arms too?

nothing much to blog… had done SOP together with DBS these days…

yesterday was very siong… today is okay… not so pain…

but still can’t use 金刚念诵法 well… most of the time was sing chanting… cham…

ooo… paiseh paiseh….. so long bo update liao… hehe…

Although I bo update but I got do homework lah sometimes sop, sometimes gyfm only…

erm… I dunno is it I sensertive or the weather turns hot… but since last week… I had been feeling very warm, always very warm…. sometimes I need to sleep with aircon plus fan…

whenever I do homework, my whole body sweats… even I on aircon…. told Edy and Kelvin, Edy say is good… so should be ok…

I started my DBS le… erm really not easy, I kneel till both legs numb and red… chant from trying 金刚念诵法 to normal singing chanting and normal singing chanting to 金刚念诵法。I am trying… I hope I can do it fluently with 金刚念诵法soon….