30-Mar-08
As usual… gong tian and meditate for 15 mins… oh..forgot to do pranic breathing… okay do now..
Pranic breathing X10
Meditation
- usual feeling of like vibration felt. Many places, legs, arms, elbow, face and forehead…
- Sparkle of lights… quite a number of times…wonder is it fo guang..
- not as scare as previous days and dun think much till at ending have uneasy feelings and thus ends my meditation…
29-March-08
28-Mar-08
- rest and relax today… hehe
29-Mar-08
- did homework today-15mins…everything is usual… tight tight feeling on fore head… felt heart beat in a way that u think ur body is rocking front and back… didn’t think much today ..just remember zacken says think simple lor… hehe….
wondering am I not thinking so much anymore and keep everything simple…hahaha
some things to update… whenever pranic breathing.. can feel bright bright..
just like… whenever I chant on buses and mrts… I do pranic breathing.. u will feel instant bright bright… I think must be the blood circulation…
I gong tian.. like this afternoon..outside my uncle’s house cooridor facing tian.. and also bright bright felt…
twitching and vibrating
Why is my left hand the palm area there keep twitching constantly??
Was on my way to the bank… and all the way to there and back office..till now still like that…
can see the area moving…
Then stupid me.. I keep looking at my palm then kanna frighten by a black vehicle while walking along the roadside pathway… thought the car was coming towards my direction..haiyo..sia yi tiao…hahaha..
A relative’s funeral in my dream..
Yesterday, sleep very very late..around 5 am… cos played games..hee hee…
Dunno how to say… is actually… I about to fall asleep then have this dream of this relative and finished the dream, I wake up…I even tell myself must remember to update into the blog…
In the dream, me with dunno who but a few others were at his wake… his 2nd son was there… but wasn’t sad and is talking and giggling there… I even told him that:”Hey! Your dad is lying there and you are still so happy??”
End of my dream….then… back to sleep I think I continue with the dream… is that I just can’t remember what is in the dream… I could only remember me telling myself (dunno is in dream or wake up)..WoW continuation dream ???
27-Mar-08
Today chanting in heart when going to work and coming back home…Normally, just sit in train, closed eyes and chant in heart…
While on the way back (chanting in train)… sometimes I visualize very bright light then suddenly dimmer then sudden very bright..dunno is it the mrt lights a not…but I do feel there is pressure or tightness on my forehead just like the meditation feelings…
Chanting will also see light and feel the tightness meh, I thought only meditation will feel this???
Back home, I decided to meditate early today..because always drag till midnight or 1am plus maybe is too late to meditate? Maybe that is why I hu si luan xiang ? And of course, to see if I get to see any lights today…but only manage to meditate for about 10 mins…
- pranic breathing X 10
- Try to imagine a beam of light from above but unable to…becomes I imagine a small hole of light from the ceiling towards my crown chraka… then after that stop the imagine…
A while later tried to imagine again, dunno why become a person taking a hammer and rod and place at my crown chraka and hammering awaying… I immediately stop… Then chant sian nian-Om mani padme hung while watching tv(108X3)…
- delicate
Questions:
1) After gong tian must meditate or chanting only also can? Cos I think last time when u tell boon… I think I heard that you say if gong tian that day, have to mediatate also… Pls correct me if wrong.
2) That day you mentioned one day can gong tian like 2-3 times, I dun get what u mean… because isn’t gong tian and guan ying fa men is together??
26-Mar-08
26-Mar-08
Today back no more pain le…hee hee…happy…and meditate for 15 mins…
These few days..心 and mind 好ruan…dunno why…
- gong tian, pranic breathing 10 times..then meditate…
- during meditation, keep reminding myself…dun think other things… just concentrate on chanting and imagine the beam…but dunno why..I just can’t imagine it…dunno how to do it… wait imagine whole room with all directions of lights, then think wrong wrong…then imagine light coming from the direction towards 3rd eye chakra..then think wrong wrong …again imagine light coming from crown chakra.. but imagine in a spiral way… I just can’t get it right.. dunno why just cannot imagine a ray of lights directly from top…haiz…
- then breathing also cannot soon soon… wait in a gan chiong way, then got to remind myself to keep calm…keep talking to myself must do it..keep calm and clear minded…
Finally, I stopped…is 15 mins bah or slightly lesser…
Then I chant 21 times om mani padme hung… then delicate…cos today when going to work I chant, during work chant at heart and when coming back also chant… so I never chant 108 times when sitting there…
I just need to keep remind myself to be steady and clear-mind…even the clothes I also 没 心情 to update… haiz…
25-Mar-08
back pain since yesterday. took painkiller in the afternoon, then around 4 plus-5pm, pain again…so decided to stop meditation for a day, only do chanting nia…
around late night… doesn’t feel pain liao..hee hee… but lazy…haiz…
I think I better go catch more sunlight this weekend…really a lot of funny thoughts…mind is being attack bah…scare this scare that…frankly, I dunno why I scare, what i scare… is just scare… remember when i 1st going to start meditation.. I also called zacken say I scare,,, after started, I also dunno what I scare…
haiz…. must not think so much liao…
23-Mar-08 & 24-Mar-08
23-Mar-08
- learn and practicing pranic breathing…
- skipped today… think too much… so I decided to rest my mind a day and start next day… opps..
24-Mar-08
- Applied the pranic breathing during meditation, hands and body also tired, cos I need to breath deeply…
- tongue vibrates when I breath deeply…
- as usual legs numb and cannot stand up..but today arms also a bit numb…
- feels warm…
- too many steps too remember so can only focus on breathing and chanting, can’t imagine the light beaming, cos if try imagine and breathing will forget to chant so think I need to practice more on the breathing so that I can be soon and can do all together …
Then, do I need to sit straight when pranic breathing?
22-MAR-08
22-mAR-08
haiyo… today manage to meditate for half an hr…
- super pain and numb…both legs and back… as usual, cannot stand up at all…
- usual tinging feelings..
- nose very icthy…
- hand pain(a while)
that’s all le for today…
21-Mar-08
21-Mar-08
just finished meditation…
- only 15mins nia today… both legs super numb. Again got difficulty standing up and walking..
- feel like a bit cold or something like a numb feel at left arm near the elbow there(a few seconds nia)…
- tinging feeling on top of head… also awhile nia…
- also feels like rock to front suddenly then got to return back to straight…abt 3-4 times..
- normally will play the nan mo ah mi tuo fo when meditating, the player stop half way but I did not react and continue to meditate…then player auto played again… funny…
In fact, yesterday I just changed to new batteries nia…
oh ya…and forget to say… did saw flashes of some horror faces… yesterday and today…
horror expressions or bloody faces & also some children like that if I did not remember wrongly… actually I scare leh…but I try not to think…then flashes disappears…
