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- GYFM… today super short , nothing felt, maybe no time to feel anything………only 4 mins…..cos Boon’s snoring very very loud ah…kakaka

Went temple with my mum… is Ma Zu niang niang’s birthday… so just pray pray…I use the GT phase to pray tian gong… but when praying to ma zu niang niang I changed to her name instead of zhong fou, pusa, sheng xian,long zu, ke da wang… Is it ok?

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- Meditate with pranic 10mins..feel forehead center itchy/numb a while…

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- Chant 108+ OMNPMH with pranic and delicate.

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26-Apr-08

Skipped and having headache

27-Apr-08

Did homework at mum’s place

- Gong Tian

- Pranic X 10

- GYFM, 10 mins.. didn’t feel anything…normal…

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- Pranic X 10

- GYFM abt 15mins… face a bit itchy, some feel on top of head, illusions…

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- chant OMNPMH X 108 time with pranic and delicate

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nice…

WE ARE NOT HUMAN BEINGS GOING THROUGH A
TEMPORARY SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE.

WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY
HUMAN EXPERIENCE.
(love this line)

- Gong Tian

- Pranic Breathing X 10

- GYFM 18 mins, saw flashing of lights from top left eye direction during the whole session of meditation. During the ending part, saw a guy’s face .. no expression & dunno this person

- Pranic Breathing X 10

- Chant OMNPMH more than 108 times & delicate

- Pranic breathing X 10

Done homework at mum’s place…

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- GYFM. 15 mins… Left eye lid like got something poke a few times, then forehead got a kind of feeling.. a very itchy feeling, the whole forehead area, about top half of my face. Got a feeling to stop because too itchy liao, but I try to endure lor. Then slowly the itchyness got lesser. Feels crown area tinging. Then feel heat at a spot around centre of forehead, then the heat spread out. At this point, I felt comfortable and dun feel like stopping… And body feels warm and perspiring. 

- Pranic X 10

wants to chant OMNPMH then saw a dead insect like a very big ant on floor…so I chant 21 times Om Mani Pedme hum xie and delicate to the insect.

- OMNPMH more than 108 times… and delicate to karmic debtors..

end of homework…

Done homework at mum’s place again…

- Gong Tian

- Pranic Breathing X 10

- Meditate for 20 mins plus+pranic breathing, feels warm, heat and perspiring…hands feels something..

- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times plus + using the pranic method…Hands feeling strong not like before…

- Pranic Breathing X 10

This fews days I very xin ku…feels very very suay… not shun at all..This morning wake up liao also feel like vomiting..

This path is difficult to pass.. now I know why you always tell me that le… very very xinku… my mind dunno can tahan how long… so many thoughts…all not good de.. always think of past unhappiness… Financial problems. even when I had a solution to counter this financial problem, it also suddenly disappear…

but I am very ti ki… I already very suay liao…nevermind, I will just carry on… 

Did homework at mum’s place again… this time I did meditation in front of the Guan Yin altar..

hmm..around 10 to 15 mins.. feels warm and perspiring… nothing much..

Today went to my mum’s place and do homework there…

- Gong Tian

- Pranic X 10

- GYFM

- Chant OMNPMH more than 108 times…

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today, I keep myself calm and tell myself, not to expect anything, just want to meditate quietly…and practice pranic while meditate a few times.. although the basketball court downstairs is quite noisy at 1st…but when I was meditating, I can’t remember I heard any noise ah… and at the beginning, my dad called me I also ignore him…

When meditating, after a while, feel heat(I did not on fan or aircon), perspiring, then feels I went into/towards something… I dunno what’s that… but confirm is went into something cos feel and what I see is changed but my body is very relax and calm till I dun want to move, not even any slight movement..like I can’t move.. but is actually I dun feel like moving..or I should say I dun want to spoil the calm I have…I am very still lor…

The scene that I saw when I start meditating is dark…it changes to a tone brighter…not those very very bright light is that it just switch to a bright scene with green colour with a bit eye twitching… then changed to army green…At this time, I got a bit gan chiong, cos I really dunno what’s that?? I am not referring to the scene I saw but is the feeling…It’s very different… like you not in this dimension… and nearer to something or a ongoing place…no stop de… then a mixture of dark dark scene with the army green(like waves).. then I was thinking…where am I?? why feel like that?? then I know I am not stable as my thoughts are wandering…then the green scene becomes on and off… then back to the normal dark scene I saw when beginning to meditate…

After this, I immediately called Zacken… then realised that was the samadi he was saying all along… the stillness was a different feel from before too… like you can’t move… but I know if I want to move, I can move 的…is just that you dun feel like moving at all…want stay like that…very still… I felt that stillness quite a few times before..but this time is much more still and like hands position is not there like that…

18-Apr-08

Fall asleep too early…skipped…

19-Apr-08

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- GYFM 15mins plus… numb feel on face.. and super numb on legs… I realised whenever I meditate for 15 mins and above…legs super numb..

haha..like alarm clock..telling me is 15mins liao..

-Pranic X 10

- Chant OMNPMH more than 108 times and delicate..always miscount, so I chant more…tried the jing gang method…dunno is it correct… mouth slight open while chanting and try to maintain tongue tuck under the front teeth.

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