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- GYFM, 30 mins… hands tremble, legs numbness but not as bad as yesterday… nothing much..

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times abv and delicate

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- GYFM, 30mins.. halfway thru, Boon play pc games, so I adjust my fingers from thumb to 3rd finger,asking him to lower the music, then repeat the GYFM saying and continue..

feel pressure on my right thigh and left side cheek bone area.. as usual numbness, when my legs start to feel numbness, I just try to ‘enjoy’ and dun make much movements, thinking that this is the kind of pain my karmic debtors feel when I hurt them… today is very very torture man…these few days, I always set alarm  clock to ensure that I meditate for 30 mins.. but the pain is really very jialat… until I really buey tahan, I peek at my hp, only 26mins… so I keep trying to endure…then peek again, 28 mins.. I shifted my legs a bit, then the left foot bone there sharp pain.. hoo…

oh ya, can visualise my family members doing meditation with me?

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times slowly and delicate.. I feel that normally I had chant too fast bah..

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just finished my homework…

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- GYFM, 30mins, forehead feel tightness, shoulder very itchy but I dun care so also forget when the itch stops. Images- scary faces like ghost, like a movie scene pop put , children, old lady with super big eyeballs. Are these my imagination? Oh ya… in order to stop having these images, I look up… so is brighter.. cos I got on light mah, then image disappears.. legs numb.. but I endure …very very very numb… today back also pain, have to straighten a few times… so today also fidgeting about..

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times and delicated

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Just finished my homework…

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- GYFM, 26mins, dunno is it I on the light, so when my head tilt upwards I see brightness.. and more brighter when tilt up more..

at the beginning, can’t really concentrate… can imagine funny things like see faces.. so I try to visualise rays of light coming so when I tilt my head upwards, I see brightness and more comfortable..can concentrate thinking nothing except lights..

even through today I do feel the numbness, but is can tolerate one.. not the buey tahan type that makes me want to move my legs.. I think I too concentrate on the visualization of lights till I dun feel the numbness although my legs already numb till like I cannot feel my legs, just like those legs aren’t mine..but when visualising, my head moves upwards and upwards, so my body also  move backwards and backwards…really scare I will fall backwards, so  I keep adjust  my body straight, but again when I visualise , my heads and body moves.. this cycle repeats a few times..

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times and delicate.  Normally I chant and closes my eyes, but  today I open eyes..ok de hor?

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- GYFM 30mins, mouth area muscle twitching , face like got static feel a while, then forehead tightness till the feel like itchy, but the itchy is not the type that you wanna scratch, is the type buey tahan like wanna stop like that. slowly then no feel liao…burps also…

after some time, my legs numb till buey tahan, like no feel, I cannot tolerate liao, so I move my legs and toes, hoping the blood will flow a bit, so wun be so numb…was feeling why so long de… then keep fidgeting about… a bit frustrated thumbs trembling a bit, maybe I frustrated, so hold too tight… then slowly no feel liao, not long alarm rings…

during the meditation, I was thinking why my legs so jialat, will numb till like that, is it karmic debtors wants me to feel the physical torture?

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- Chant OMNPMH abt 108 times and delicate

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24-May-08

went puja with Zann at Suntec… then … I skipped again today… sleep early…

25-May-08

saw Zacken’s reply in the morning…haiz..I must not be lazy ah…so I tell myself to try do 30 mins for today..

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- GYFM, realised I never sit properly and quite uncomfortable so I adjust and redo the GYFM…think maybe after sometime, I felt my leg super super numb..cannot tahan and I guess should be 15 mins le bah… so bobian I separated my thumbs by touching the 3rd fingers to the thumb and adjust my right leg higher… this only ease a bit, after not long same, super super numb, but this time I just adjust without using my hands by shifting my legs lower… then not long the spinning feeling came.. from slight to very very obvious and big circles..so I just tell myself, let it spin bah… then it spin faster and faster … and after some time, the spinning became smaller circles and slower till it finally stopped… total about 30mins..

Haiz..Always is my right leg numb till buey tahan de…left leg not so bad..

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times & delicate

Just finish my homework for today…

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- GYFM, 3 mins, halfway through hp rings… got a fright so redo again..

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- GYFM, 8 mins, nothing usual.. fang yi ge pi..maybe stomach not well this time..keke

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 times with pranic and delicate

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21-May-08

- skipped, fall asleep …

22-May-08

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- GYFM, 13 mins, nothing usual..just illusions/images… slight feel of spinning.. inside ears very itchy, maybe just bath out got water inside..keke

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- Chant OMNPMH X 108 and delicate

today meditate very late…around 3.23am…

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- GYFM, 9 mins… nothing unusual… but right ear like got block a few times.. like got static at my back once, give me a shock ..tot who touch me…

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Went Mazu temple in the morning, then go collect the fishes and prawns with mum and Zann… We go Ponggol Park to free the animals…Before freeing, we chanted the list taken from Zacken’s blog…

hopefully the prounciation are correct…

Btw, I only stay vegetarian till evening wor..is it okie?

But..today skipped the GYFM…haiz..cos I fall asleep… lazy me….