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very lazy to blog… hehe.. as usual… went to class and Sop..sometimes got skip… sometimes chanting with GYFM…

actually a few weeks ago… my bro said he wanted to eat vegetarian for a period of abt one mth… not strict one just normal vege without meat de..(becos he wan reduce weight…) but he 1st day already bu xiao xin de ate some meat..thinking it was potato wedges..but is fried hotdog..haiz..
then he got a dream after a few days… the dream is to encourage him to carry on eat vege… but he bo follow lo… only trying to eat lesser meat nia..

I will start my vege diet from 1st day of the lunar 7th mth till gui yi … will try not to break this vege diet during this period…

SOP done with DG (a while) & walking meditation (a while)

17-Jul-09 & 18-Jul-09

- GYFM

19-Jul-09

Homework at centre.. today de healer is Vel.. wo kanna lup ..heehee..

from left arm to right arm then from back to right side of neck… feel pain plus shiok.. Vel’s hand must be quite pain too.. cos after healing a few person..her hand is swollen and blue black…

20-Jul-09

SOP done… but sick…

21-Jul-09

-Skipped SOP, MC for 2 days…

11-Jul-09

- skipped…

12-Jul-09

went centre… today shifu want us to began chanting one by one… after that healing.. was healing Shirley… oh she very poor thing…

When I was healing her.. I want to kick her.. I stopped… cos I heard crying coming from her direction… but I din see any tears from her… and I have mixed feelings of should I proceed to kick… then I told shifu I scare she cry… and was told dun judge by ur own thinking..just 配合… so I kick lo…

kick many times, then slap her back, use the back of my hand to hit her back area up till her head…press her forehead and shoulder… seems like very violent lo… heng after that she said she enjoy it … many classmates were saying the actions looks violent… keke… I kept attacking her heart chakra using my knee to kick her… there is one part I saw her like want to puke/burp… my sudden reaction was to push her head and hit her head…

oh ya… my hand keep putting on top of her head… sometimes swirling..

when healing her.. I have to keep taking deep breaths…

My arms were suan and pain after healing too…move too much..keke..

13-Jul-09 to 15-Jul-09

These 3 days si bei jialat… so guilty.. I am lazy loh… want to do homework..in the end drag..then sleep till morning..plus sick… Monday diarrhea, the rest of the days flu…

16-Jul-09

today centre again chanting then healing… this time I am being healed… and I was been hit also.. my arms… left side then right side… power sia… I feel it right to my bone… the pain like electric shock… I guess the healer is either Keagen/Carlos bah…

Richard very funny lo… I sunday lup people so today tio lup…kekeke…

Thanks to healer!! I believe ur hands also pain de…

眼（色） – colours, 有形

耳（声） – 美妙的声音

口（味） – good taste

鼻（香） – nice smell

身（触） – touch, warm, soft..

意（想法） – thinking

All these gave us an image/ set our thinking..We judge by using the abv..

These are poisons that hinder our 定…

For example, when we do GYFM, we see colours, hear nice music or smell something nice.. If we continue to chase these feelings, we will be chao-ing 魔… and the stronger ur ling energy, the powerful the 魔 will be…

定

We have to introduce 慈悲喜捨into our daily activities… and be mindful 24hrs。。

慈 – kind, charitable, benevolent

悲 – to be compassionate

喜 – happy, cheerful

捨 – discard, give up willingly

When we have 慈悲喜舍, we will naturally have 自在。。。then we will have 定。。。

A simple definition of 自在 … simply bochup…

慈懷圓攝悲、喜、捨，悲心不離喜、捨、慈，
法喜全賴慈、悲、捨，盡捨方證喜、悲、慈。

Benevolence embraces compassion, joy and release.
Compassion is based on joy, release and benevolence.
Joy depends on benevolence, compassion and release.
Release all to attain joy, compassion and benevolence.

慈悲喜舍

四無量心，慈悲喜捨，明白標示修養菩提心之行止準則。四心之間，圓融無礙，方契其旨。行者細思，便知其中任一皆不離餘三而圓攝之，相輔共成。慈中自有悲、喜、捨，悲深不離喜、捨、慈，餘亦類之。

The Four Boundless Minds as taught in Buddhism may be described as benevolence, compassion, joy and release. (Here release means the releasing of all partiality.) Together they provide clear criteria for intentions and conducts that are appropriate to the cultivation of Bodhicitta. These four should be harmonized into oneness in order to achieve the intended goal. Upon careful reflection one would realize that any one of them is inseparable from and entails the rest. They support one another to form a complete whole. In benevolence there is naturally compassion, joy and release. Compassion is inseparable from joy, release and benevolence. The rest are similar

Questions been answered:

When we are doing the healing, do we clear the karma of the person?

Ans: No. Only the bad energy/qi is cleared.

When a person starts xiuxing because of guilt, is it right to think that way?

Ans: When a person xiuxing with the abv thinking is because the person have gone thru pain… People are likely to xiuxing when they have gone thru miserable past/pain and sadness..

When you have done something wrong in the past(incurred karma), does our daily xiuxing lessen our karma?

Ans: No, wrong means wrong. We xiu so that one day when we 成道， then our karma will be released… 一人成道， 九族升天。。。

Update of my bro’s 30mins pranic breathing

- whole body numb, the feeling like floating, just like yesterday

- after finished, eyeballs keep rolling round abt… very weird.. just feel like rolling..

Went sch for lesson… practice walking meditation… then DG … I ate quite full for dinner but I am happy as I didn’t puke… today walk a lot a lot wor…

Updates of my bro’s 30 min pranic breathing…

- felt numb on whole body

- feel like got a few ants crawling at his left arm

- Upper lip trembling

Updates of my bro’s 15min DG…

- at the beginning not much movement… I feel that he is thinking abt the movement, so I on the Nan mo ah mi tou fo player to help him relax and direct his thinking away…

- after abt 10 mins, began to sway his body, slight hands and legs movements…then the movement gets stronger a little, I asked him to stop and relax.. cos I scare leh…

- he have the feeling of opening his eyes but never ..like feel flashes…

- While he is doing his DG, I saw both his arms and legs.. the skin colour looks red with white colour spots… like when someone is cold..that kind of skin colour…

03-Jul-09 & 04-Jul-09

- skipped on 3rd and wake up early to do homework on 4th…

05-Jul-09

- went centre for homework.. not a lot of people… as usual chant and meditate together… then was been done healing as my back still feels pain…

06-Jul-09

Done SOP…

07-Jul-09 & 08-Jul-09

- skipped…

I had been quite lazy recently…

29-Jun-09 & 30-Jun-09

Neck, shoulder and back area very very pain, see chinese physician and gets slightly better… but at night the pain is terrible.. sit, stand lie down also cannot… very pain… never do SOP at all… only san nian OMPH and DBZ…

01-Jul-09

feels slightly better as I can turn my head but still pain except that I can bear with it… done SOP but have difficulty in Da Li Pai, cos I can’t get up … DBZ only 7 times… tried using the “child calling mother method” for OMPH… hehe…  

02-Jul-09

Went to class to with my brother…Realised my mandala is not doing correctly…so must take note of that…

today the chanting was very different from the other time… it’s the difference of 专心。。 This time we are able to 招请 higher beings thats y our healing was different from the other times. Understand from shifu that this type of healing is better than the other we had been learning but is not always successful to do so as we need to be concentrated to 一心念咒.. while chanting I could see flashes of lights… then follow by heard weird sounds, then started to feel that the room is getting very very crowded…

then shifu ask me to get up and help do healing… while doing healing, I could sense someone huge is standing beside me at my left side.   

Then today my brother did his chan hui le… so he is ”confirmed” liao… Hope he will continue practicing his xiuxing diligently…

He mentioned that his DG, only right hand feels warm and numb..nothing felt for his left hand…

then went his room to chant DBZ then back to my home… talked to him abt DG but I forgot to ask if he can practice DG at home or only at center?

As for his SOP, he can’t do the mandala hand sign, so can he just chant and guan xiang without the hand sign?