Helpless
I always saw dying animals around my workplace… today I saw another dying pigeon, so restlessly lying on the ground… from far, I tot it was dead, i even think of not passing / walking near it cos I can’t help him anyway… but I still decides to passby as I was quite kpo.. I saw a small white cap there, someone had deliberately left a cap of water for the poor bird.. I felt glad, there are kind people ard and the animal isn’t dead … but it is suffering… it definitely is…. I felt so helpless.. I can’t do anything to it… not even chanting…. haiz… in the end I just walk past it silently…..
Positive thinking linked with 平等心？
I realised I will try to use positive thinking on many “things” or issues that are happening around me.. actually since young, I always thought my parents are fair to me and my brother.. they loves us… until one day..
Someone told me, ” Hey, ur dad is very biased, I felt that he 重男轻女。” (With many examples) Well, I kept quiet.. I just kept thinking, I love my brother.. so even if it is, thats because my parents are just worried of his future.. I just sua lo.. but sometimes when I am angry, I will think negative and regret…there was once, I told my bro, dad dun loves me, he 偏心.. bro scolded me and said ” how can you think like that?!? He loves you, dun u feel it?
I was like “zip” bo wue gong.. so paiseh.. think like that..
ya lah..my dad loves me.. I shouldn’t listen to others comments and start to think negative…
then my work.. I joined my company as the 1st staff.. and slowly I help my boss to find more staffs(my frds), then this frd”C” joined my company and get the same wage as me although she doesn’t have any experience.. when she told me, my 1st reaction was .. wah.. is my boss unfair??
Actually, I thought for a while.. no bah.. I did not question my boss, I just go home keep thinking, why is he doing something like that…
I gave positive reasons to make myself happy.. probably, this is easier for my boss to calculate wage? probably we are eventually doing the same job scope? just different customers nia? ‘C’ kept saying paiseh to me…and my hubby also say aiyo, how come ur boss like that?
but to me, I kept thinking, if she gets lower wage, I happy meh? no wor… anyway, definitely my boss wun suddenly raise my wage mah… so y bother? is only if she gets more or less, it doesn’t concern me..
Later then I realised, ya.. right, I quite sure that my boss is the type that likes to do things in a simple way… and to him, this is fair. unless, u got promoted, otherwise its only a difference of who joined the firm earlier or later nia..
I realised positive thinking very imp… cos if I do not think like that.. I might have quarreled badly with my dad and not talking to him anymore… Or resign from my job and probably joined a worse company!!
I wonder.. if I had that negative thinking and reaction.. I think I now really very jialat… poor family relationship and probably jobless too…
Fair or not fair.. I think more or less is linked to what you think… If you dun bother, take it normal.. it will be fair.. if u kept it in heart.. what ever fair or unfair also fake.. you will still take it as unfair, negative…
I have to always remind myself… dun think negative.. I rather, I keep thinking and reminding..then to do a grave mistake later…
I like these….
Everything can be changed by our mind.
這樣碰到不平常的事情時，
心才會很平常。
如不以平常心面對，
實在難以繼續前進。
之所以會有貧賤、富貴、男女之分，
完全在於心的作用使然。
沒有平等心的慈悲，
其實只是偏狹的小愛而已。
Sian.. unhappy…
Early morning heard from Boss the project I just took over during Feb was kanna escalated and I was complained…
best part is the person that passed to me this project just throw to me like not her business and her reply to them is like I bochup the work…those were handled by her halfway and she is the one that tells me that she will handle that.. yet it took her abt a week to reply me the details.. then to the cust point of view.. they said”the level of professionalism is not there – rather than taking the pro-active approach, they’re passive…” “becoming an exasperating process.”
Pengz!!! Seeing these remarks.. I think jialat liao.. later sure kanna peanut butter liao… sian day…
